There’s a bluebird in my heart

There’s a bluebird in my heart

I’m late to the game, but I recently got into Charles Bukowski. He’s one of those authors that people assume you know of but you really don’t, until you read something of theirs. There’s something so pure about the way he manipulates language. It reads autobiographically, but it’s raw and masculine and vulgar and wonderful.

I’ve been feeling very Bukowski lately if that makes sense. I found this poem and it definitely fits my thought process at the moment.

there’s a bluebird in my heart that
wants to get out
but I’m too tough for him,
I say, stay in there, I’m not going
to let anybody see
you.
there’s a bluebird in my heart that
wants to get out
but I pour whiskey on him and inhale
cigarette smoke
and the whores and the bartenders
and the grocery clerks
never know that
he’s
in there.

there’s a bluebird in my heart that
wants to get out
but I’m too tough for him,
I say,
stay down, do you want to mess
me up?
you want to screw up the
works?
you want to blow my book sales in
Europe?

there’s a bluebird in my heart that
wants to get out
but I’m too clever, I only let him out
at night sometimes
when everybody’s asleep.
I say, I know that you’re there,
so don’t be
sad.
then I put him back,
but he’s singing a little
in there, I haven’t quite let him
die
and we sleep together like
that
with our
secret pact
and it’s nice enough to
make a man
weep, but I don’t
weep, do
you?

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